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I Walked

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Mar 14 '14

ambulavi:

hi world! I’m moving my blog to a different url. this blog is old and has a bunch of stuff I’d rather keep to myself from here on out, so I’m going to password protect it and sort of start over. I’ll do that in a few days.

it’s really difficult to contact people individually because of the ask limit, so if you want the new url just ask me. please don’t be offended if I don’t reply - I want my tumblr to be kind of a safe space for me to talk honestly about myself and my circumstances, so I’d rather keep this thing a little more personal from here on out. I love you guys. without this dumb blog I don’t know what the fuck I’d have done to cope with myself the last several years

xoxo

yo

Mar 14 '14

hi world! I’m moving my blog to a different url. this blog is old and has a bunch of stuff I’d rather keep to myself from here on out, so I’m going to password protect it and sort of start over. I’ll do that in a few days.

it’s really difficult to contact people individually because of the ask limit, so if you want the new url just ask me. please don’t be offended if I don’t reply - I want my tumblr to be kind of a safe space for me to talk honestly about myself and my circumstances, so I’d rather keep this thing a little more personal from here on out. I love you guys. without this dumb blog I don’t know what the fuck I’d have done to cope with myself the last several years

xoxo

Mar 10 '14
Mar 10 '14

I’m reading through the handbook of the school I attended for all 13 years of my pre-college education, and came upon this gem

"In light of God’s Word (1Thess. 4:3, 1 Cor. 6:18-20), [the school] upholds a biblical view of morality.  Whenever there is clear evidence of willing participation in sexual immorality (such as premarital sexual relations, unwed pregnancy, homosexuality) a student will not be permitted to attend [the school]. In addition, since the Scriptures teach that life is sacred, a student who has an abortion may not attend [the school].  Parents of students in violation of these policies will be asked to withdraw them from the school. "

aaaaand that’s why all of my life I hated myself for even considering that I might be tomboyish, or “lustful,” or gender fluid or heaven forbid, a gay, and that’s still why I can’t bring myself to be open with my parents/old school friends about things of this nature. anything other than these standards equals pretty much instant ostracization, or at least  years (if not a lifetime) of awkwardness/mild to severe resentment/being loudly evangelized to all the time

Mar 10 '14

it is finally, FINALLY, FINALLY warm (mid to high 50s!) and sunny. I went skateboarding for the first time since November, and I went to the zoo and the lake and through some parks, and there were old men playing chess on a bench, and I made friends with a sea lion, and then I went to a cafe and bought a nice bottle of ginger ale. then I sat and started a new comic (!!!!!! should be up tomorrow maybe) in the sunshine of a nice big window in the cafe, and for a while they had playing a chopin nocturne arranged for accordion and violin. precious. then I had a brief meeting at school, and now I’m home making curry and outlining the first of four papers I have to write in the next week.

four papers, a project, two presentations, a jury, and one exam and I’m done. that may seem like a lot, but to me it seems pleasantly finite. in a week in a half I’ll be done with this trimester, and next Saturday Boyfriend and I are going to the WTNV show for free, and then I’ll work full time over spring break and read lots of books when I’m not working

COOL

Mar 10 '14
Hello friend

#sealion #lincolnparkzoo (at Lincoln Park Zoo)

Hello friend

#sealion #lincolnparkzoo (at Lincoln Park Zoo)

Mar 9 '14

I just bought an Xbox and a bunch of games from an acquaintance for $100. I wasn’t planning on getting one until I was working full time this summer, but it showed up on Facebook and I COULDN’T HELP MYSELF OK

he’s gonna be in town to drop it off in a couple weeks. it’ll be my first console since my parents were pretty anti-video game when I was growing up so I’m a little excited

and idk if it’s the fact that I just spent money or of it’s something else from the cocktail of stressors in me right now, but I feel really panicky so I’m hiding in Boyfriend’s bathroom while he and friends eat dinner and play video games

I don’t have my l-theanine with me so I might just go try to nap it off

I feel sick

sigh

Mar 8 '14
"People are strange: they are constantly angered by trivial things, but on a major matter like totally wasting their lives, they hardly seem to notice"
Charles Bukowski  (via dyingburrito)
Mar 8 '14

@thesuninthemorningsky said: Weird vibes?

yeah, sort of. my housemates are usually all in bed by 11 (and I’m rarley home before midnight because of work), they’re weird about anything not super-Christian, (i.e. drinking, cursing, having guys (or anyone) over, weed, etc.), and sometimes they don’t really “get” functioning independently, and it gets frustrating. I just want to live with people who aren’t so uptight. plus having to tiptoe around the house while they have their weekly Bible study is a little weird

so yeah

Mar 8 '14

I’m browsing through Craiglist for potential places to move to in July, and there are some neat postings. Judging by what’s up there now, and assuming more things will open up as summer approaches (since that’s a popular time to start leasing), I should be able to find something pretty great for a considerable amount less than I am paying now. I’m seeing the occasional “artsy loft” type deal, which usually means cheap rent and living with a bunch of creative types, which could definitely make for something interesting

I don’t know I don’t have money and I live in Chicago and it’s expensive WAH

Mar 8 '14

my housemate’s twin sister is here and there is this super weird dynamic between them and all they do is either fight really passive aggressively or go on and on about how much they love each other and I’m REALLY CONFUSED

in the interest of saving money I’m probably moving this summer which though it will mean probably not getting a cat (SAD), I might have roommate(s) that aren’t quite…so………I don’t know. there are some weird vibes in this house

Mar 7 '14

(Source: bradleyspitzer)

Mar 7 '14

HA I’m in love

just making a general announcement. it’s cool

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Mar 6 '14

GOD DAMN IT. I WANT TO GO SKATE BOARDING. I WANT TO SIT AT THE BEACH AND STUDY AND DRAW AND BRING PICNICS. I WANT TO WEAR LONG FLOWY DRESSES AND PRETTY MAKEUP AND PAINT MY TOENAILS AND EAT CHEESE AND APPLES IN THE SUNSHINE. FUCK WINTER, FUCK IT, FUCK EVERYTHING, I WANT TO GO ON A PLEASANT GODDAMN STROLL AND WADE IN LAKE MICHIGAN AND READ WEIRD BOOKS IN THE DAPPLED SHADE OF FULLERTON BEACH AAAAAHHHHHHH

Mar 6 '14

I want

  • a cat (July)
  • weather warm enough to wear dresses (hopefully in the next two months)
  • money (never)
  • good grades (feasible)
  • a hug (tonight)
  • time for art and comics (soon?)
  • inspiration (???!?!#V@#CRwefs zdcx gnfgdcs)